In trying to find yourself, you are faced with many realitites in which you may have never wanted to know. You face pain straight on. Are we looking at the reality of ourselves or what we want to project to everyone. Are we projecting the ideal self to the outsiders because we are scared of what they might think of the real us. Or because we maybe don’t even know who we are. I know this sounds very philosophical and confusing, but this is very much what the past 2 years have been for me. I have been on this self improvement movement….facing many of my past experiences head on (the certain things i saw in being raised), facing pain with relationships I gave up on or admitting fault in dropping the ball is some of those. I have hurt people, i have broken hearts, I have faced losing friends, I have gained friends, I have learned from every person in my life.