Growing pains…

Are you feeling them? I mean seriously as we get older we start to really think about things right? We start to evaluate who we are, where were going, the people we associate with, the decisions we make, etc. I have never in my life had such a more confusing and endearing pivotal point. I am honestly looking at myself as I become a woman and the whole maturation process is very interesting. Its weird..You look at your friends from your hometown whom which you went to high school with, you see that you want more. So you go to the major university and you graduate with your degree. Do you stay there? Well, 70% of the people do. But you ask yourself…don’t I want more out of life? I didn’t necessarily meet Mr. or Mrs. right in college nor do I want kids or to settle down, so I’m going to see what this world has to offer. So you move. Hopefully, I am painting a clear picture of someone that wants the most out of life and that will constantly be evolving and changing. I always knew I wanted that and I will continue to want that. In this process though, you leave people behind or you lose touch BC why? Because you are growing as a human being. You start setting these goals for yourself, you start expecting more out of yourself, and really those people you once were in the boat with are now hard to connect with.  I think we all need to be surrounded around people that motivate and inspire. Those that make you a better person. Not because they are harping on you, but because they lead by example. I recently went to San Francisco and absolutely fell in love with the city. I reconnected with a girlfriend I went to high school with that lives there and design the girls clothing on iphone gaming applications. (Who really cares) but I was inspired. I was motivated. I could connect with the people there on so many different levels. It was real. If the city you are living in does NOT coincide or is not conducive to what You really want in life, then that is the time to really soul search: your career path/city/immediate circle of friends and family and start to make moves in making that happen. I am not here to preach, but simply releasing my thoughts on a topic that is very hard for me to communicate to these particular people, but yet I feel this touches everyone. And as it should. It is just in particularly hard for me because I didn’t want to admit to myself that I was measuring my success (in turn, my happiness) to someone that doesn’t necessarily have the same goals, aspirations, and dreams as I do.. However, I want more. I do. I want a career, self-sufficiency, a family, and to be the most amazing mother one day. 🙂 I’m 26 so got a ways to go, but at least I have self realization, am on the right path, and confident in my self efficacy.

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